Today’s question is: Why, when you want to move forward, does it seem you always have to step back?
Background: As many of you know I had a minor procedure last week to fix a scar from a surgery last year. What happened last year was basically something like a suture abscess. For whatever reason my body didn’t agree with the stitches in one part of the incision and after a few months it started to look infected. I ended up having about 5 spots get very red, need to be opened and drained and cared for. In all I probably spit 20 or more stitches in the recovery span. The scars left behind from the little abscesses were kinda yucky and gross. They pulled and tingled and hurt, ever so slightly, it was bothersome. So last week, despite the fact that the surgeon said he felt like we might be opening Pandora’s box, I decided to get it fixed.
The fix looks great, totally. I can foresee that the pain associated with the old scarring will be gone and all the big red scars are gone. I’m happy with that aspect, it’s why I did it.
The problem, 1 step back, is that my body, apparently, doesn’t agree with the new stitches. You all remember me complaining about the pain last week, right? Well I got that under control and now I’m not taking any pain meds. However, I have a rash. All around the incision the skin is red there are very small blisters and it itches beyond belief. I’ve been very, very good at keeping busy to try to forget about the itch as much as possible. It’s a lot easier to do during the day than at night. Night time is the worst. I’ve been hoping, since Friday, when I realized that I have a rash and not just a little bit of redness from the procedure, that it would simply go away.
It has not.
I finally broke down and called the nurse this morning. Not because I wanted to. It’s like admitting defeat. I did it because my sister, who is a foot reflexologist, said I had to. Well, I knew I had to, but living in denial would have worked for me for at least a few more days.
You see my awesome sister came over and gave me a nice 1 hour foot reflexology treatment last night. She worked the area of my incision for a good amount of time and really made it burn. It felt great. But she urged me to let surgeon know that I’m still sensitive to the replacement sutures. She said it wasn’t fair to let him think it was ok, when it really wasn’t. I know she was right, it’s just that I wish it could have all just gone totally fine. It makes me mad (and a wee bit sad) that I couldn’t just get the easy fix I wanted. Why can’t things just be easy?
So, now I’m going to walk to the pharmacy to pick up my antibiotic and my oral steroid to see if we can stay on top of whatever is happening within my body. I totally hate being told “I told you so” and I know that’s exactly what my surgeon is thinking at this point. I just wish it wasn’t so. It’s a bummer for me.
And as if the rash wasn’t bad enough, it looks like I’m developing a sty in my eye. Am I lucky or what?